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Blog << PREVIOUS | NEXT >>The Times That Make You REACH for Prayer....... Aug 02, 2011
I've been getting news, on and off, this past year
that somewhat has me stressing.
Things start going bad, then pick up a bit...
and now, they are bad again.
((In regards to VERY close loved ones))
It's financial.
UGH.
And it's BIG.
A miracle, would be nice, right about now.
I was just in the shower and they came to mind.
I clenched my eyes, tight, in frustration.
I want to cry because it seems like an impossible situation to fix...
within the means/surroundings/situations.
It's times like these, I naturally wanna fall back and pray.
(Very close to becoming a nun, then thinking of doing a monk-like thing)
NO, seriously. Stop laughing.
=P
However, I've released that mode of living.
I don't pray.
And haven't for many years now.
I've gone from one extreme to the next.
I don't believe in "middle" grounds, in regards to certain life choices.
You are either religious, or not.
You either pray, or you don't.
(You ARE allowed to be "lost" while finding yourself)
:)
I roll my eyes at those who throw themselves into prayer during
the "hard" times and "forget" about the "Lord/God"
when shit's just fine and dandy.
These kind of people are usually the hypocritical
"You are going to hell"
judgemental
"LOST CASES"
(I feel sorry for you. Hopefully one day, you will truly "see the light")
It's been me, fending for myself, for most of my life.
I don't lean on anyone, and if I've ever done so...
it's rare.
Plus, I have "faith" that the only person you can really count on
is YOURSELF
and sometimes...
YOU ain't even there, for YOU.
So go figure putting faith in those around you.
HA.
Good luck.
So, who do I "pray" to when the feeling arises?
NO ONE.
I find solutions instead.
Do the best I can with all that I have...
(intelligence, skills, connections, etc)
and
Let be, what will be.
For the best outcome, one must give their all.
So...
Let's see what rainbows I can fabricate with the tears I let
dissolve in the wind...
the blood that will help keep me alive
and the sweat from my efforts to lift the struggles
away from the ones that I love.
Have a nice day all.
xoxoxox
**Respect isn't "given" it's earned, fuckers**
:)
Do shit ALL the way, or just SHUT the FUCK up.
((Excuse my French))
ha ha
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